Losing Kelly 
 
Empty  
Lonely  
Desolate 
In pain 
I've given up my angel 
Will I ever see her again? 
 
Angry  
Bitter  
Hurt 
And alone 
How many years 
Will I wait by the phone?  
 
Despair  
Frightened  
My soul laid bear 
I once held Kelly  
Now she's no longer there 
 
NOTE 
 
I find this one of the most difficult periods in my life to discuss. 
 
I have no doubt that there are parents out there both male and female who have left their children behind in the wake of a marriage breakdown and moved on with their lives. I however was faced with the reality that being a part in a war between two bitter people who's relationship was over my daughter Kelly was being hurt. Finally when I could take no more of seeing her being hurt and pulled back and forth in what was becoming a sick mental game of chess between lawyers and courts l gave up and walked away. That day is forever burned deep within my soul. Every parent’s instinct is to protect and love their child. In walking away from my daughter I felt I was protecting her from all that was going on. It was the only way to ensure she suffered no more. That didn't make it any easier to do. The mental and physical pain I went through in those dark days was horrendous. The guilt and self doubt would play on my mind for years to come. It was to become the fuel of my darkest nightmares that would last over a decade. And that day still haunts me. The day I gave my angel Kelly away and was left desolate empty and alone with my soul laid bear for the whole world to see. 
 
Don't tell me that dad's don't care. I cared more than anyone on this fucking planet will ever know.